Well i got canned, laid off what ever it doesn’t matter if its the polite way or the fuck you you suck way the result is the same …. terminology matters when it comes to looking for work but to me they all feel the same. Now somehow I have to feed me and my hunnie and pay bills etc on less what one of my checks would be if i was working…

So my worst fears came true, were both unemployed and were gonna just be scraping by.

I keep thinking hateful thoughts of my old boss.. wishing his company folds soon .. I am not a hateful person but since he handled everything so poorly i wish him the worst of luck .

I have not given up on my husband finding a job ..not really… I honestly feel it will always be like this and i feel like I’m in this alone sometimes like there is no team here.

I know he has been looking but I think hes to honest for his own good. That’s to hard to explain but in a nutshell we don’t have a car just say your wife drives etc who cares as long as u get there on time.

He keeps asking we can get help from someone right .. i keep trying to explain were on our own here. Unemployment is all were gonna get and the fact that the money i put in and i’m getting it out and still need to be taxed on it is the most unfair crap this government can do in this situation. So, when I normally do not owe taxes , I prob will owe close to a 1,000 next year. If not more depending on how long it takes to find work.

I am scared out of my mind right now.